Sorry to hear you have to go through what you are. Animals ARE our best freinds. They are there for us in time of happiness, sadness, they don't talk back, and they just listen when you need to talk. I have a dog that I love like you do. She is a Shepard-Husky mix and withering away also. Slowly but losing her hearing and ambition, she is 13 years old. Even being a man, just reading your post brought tears to my eyes. Remember when you got your little puppy you made a commitment to provide that animal whatever it needs to live as it were a free soul. At this point, it sounds like she needs to be set free of her pain and bondage. I can only imagine how hard it is. Hope you can muster the strength and courage to do what is right for your little friend.