Ok, I need help :S

[Munizfire]

Let me start by saying I'm not the kind of person that goes to forums as their social activity (no offense to anyone, and I do respect people that prefer it this way), nor to 'show off' my problems. But this is getting out of my hands...

To start giving background info: I was studying (transferred to another college this week) Electrical Engineering at what is considered PR's best University, whose focus is Engineering and Sciences. It goes without saying that it is also the Hardest University in here, but it's not in vain, It's name is VERY prestigious (we tend to think of it as the MIT of Puerto Rico), and MANY other universities and BIG companies (NASA, GE, GM, P&G, Honda, Microsoft, Disney, amongst hundreds of other important companies) come a few times a year to recruit employees, interns, research students and all that. You get the idea.
Oh, and I have A.D.H.D. of the extreme inattentive kind.

It all started this summer, when I was repeating Calculus (they make math classes extremely hard in there, they use them as filter classes). Obviously as you can see I wasn't doing so well, and the A.D.D. wasn't helping at all. So here's the first reason: 1- Sad because of poor school performance. Well guess what? I didn't pass the class that time either, nor did the vast majority of the students taking it with me, as they (the administration) took a class that was intended for a 6 week summer schedule (5 days a week, 2.5 hours a day) in just 3 WEEKS! That added a lot of bummer-ness to the situation :/

Well, one week after the course ended, my sister had to go to ICU (esophagus hemorrhage or something like that). And every night the doctors were low on hope. Even my dad who is a somewhat reknown Doctor, was losing all kinds of hope on her, and it is :cens0r: horrible to see your Dad/doctor crying every night because he too thought he would lose his daughter. I fight with her a lot, but I truly love her. Second reason: 2- Really sick sister with very low chances of making it. Thankfully she came through it after like 2 weeks in the ICU.

Then, at the same time (this started happening the last week of my sister being in the ICU), my paternal grandparents (he is 91 and she is 85(I think)) who always were very active and healthy, out of the blue went crazy (turns out that grandma accidentally took an overdose of grandpa's meds, and he kinda lost it having to take care of her). Man... She was really messed up, up there, I caught her once washing her face and hands with DW-40. After 3 weeks of Dad controlling both of their meds, they came back to normal. Sigh.
Reason #3 3- Grandparents went psychotic.

Come on Life, is that your best shot?

No it wasn't...

After approximately 3 weeks after my grandparents 'collapse' an aunt of mine died... GREAT. Fourth reason: 4- Death of an aunt. And right after I got a mild throat infection (made me sad, but only temporarily)




INTERMISSION- go grab a snack or a drink, this isn't over by a long shot.



Like a month after my Aunt's death, some :cens0r:s mistook the car of a friend of mine (could be considered as a house mate) for the car of someone they wanted to kill, and gave them over 30 shots, which most of them ended up inside my friends' bodies (they were 2 inside the car, both were friends). The whole island was disgusted by this, because both of them were good guys, they didn't mess with anyone, and both had promising futures. So here's the fifth reason: 5- 2 friends were killed. On a side note, I die a little inside every time I see the same car that he had, and today I drove by the place where they were killed, and lost it... BADLY.

Ok, like 2 weeks right after that, my dad caught this rare and violent Virus/Bacteria (had properties, and symptoms of both) from a patient in the hospital. He had to be admitted to the ER. - Let me make a side note here: My dad is the kind of doctor that never complains, and every time he gets sick, he just sucks it up, or takes medicine, and it's over. This time he even put on his own serum bags here at home, and still had to go to the hospital.- And as much as I would like to say that he was the only one affected, it would be a lie... Everyone in my house was affected as well (except my brother, he lives in Dallas): Mom, my sister, and me. And guess who had it worse? ME. The virus/bacteria de-hydrated my whole body in less than 4 hours... I literally couldn't move. Well I took 7 freaking serums in 2 days to recover... Sixth reason: 6- I got REAL sick, along with my family.

SIGH...
It wasn't all, while we were all sick, my Maternal Grandfather (R.I.P.) died of a Heart Attack... Seventh reason: 7- Death of my grandfather. Here was when I totally lost it...

Guess what? My Parental Grandparents are crazy again... same thing that happened last time... but this time it isn't cool. Today I was driving home and my grandma calls me and tells me that my brother died in an accident... So I pulled over, and after crying for a while, I called my mom, and it turns out that my grandma made it up, she swears she saw it on TV tho. (we called him, he's OK ) Insert a sigh of relief here...

And Lastly, and this is what is keeping me up tonite, I hope I can grab some rest for a while... I have been with my girlfriend officially for 2 years, but it's basically a 5 year relationship, because we spent 3 years flirting, and hanging out, and all that, but we didn't want to make it serious/official until she got into college... Well, she knows me very well and she knows that when I'm sad/depressed, I LIKE/NEED to be alone. She is being extremely clingy these last week (I understand she misses me, we practically lived together when I studied there, but This week I started in another college), to the point where she calls me 7-9 times a day and texts me like 15 times a day... GOOD GOD.
So, obviously I asked her for some space/time (I really need it, it's not like I'm cheating on her or anything) and she got extremely pissed at me, and now she calls like 5 times a day and like 8 texts per day... which is still A LOT, specially when I need to have some time to think and get over some tragedies. Again, I asked her for space/time but she's still clingy, so I'm just ignoring her calls, and not answering her texts (I know, very douchebag from my part, but she has to understand). WAIT FOR IT... WAIT FOR IT...
She texted me like 2 hours ago saying (real quote): "I don't think that we should be together anymore"... FML just what I needed... Eight and last reason: 8- My Girlfriend and I are about to break up....

Oh and I'm very stressed with this whole 'New College and living in my house again' thing....

I'm about to explode... Honestly I'd love to get on a plane and return to England or just visit Norway, and get lost (not literally, but to get disconnected from the world) on a forest....


TL: DR Version... I'm depressed as crap..., just read the text in bold for a quick summary.

Please excuse any grammar mistakes, as English isn't my first language, I'm pretty mad/depressed and just took down a whole bottle of Porto wine (I don't know how I am going to wake up tomorrow to get to class lol)

PS: JUDY (or any admins) I wrote the :cens0r:s myself, to avoid using the words that I wanted, they weren't triggered...

[bsavage]

I think you need to let that wine do its thing, and have a nice long sleep. You've got some serious obstacles to overcome and I hope you're able to tackle them all as quickly and painlessly as possible.

Sounds like you've had a really rough go...I wish you the best

[Munizfire]

I think you need to let that wine do its thing, and have a nice long sleep. You've got some serious obstacles to overcome and I hope you're able to tackle them all as quickly and painlessly as possible.

Sounds like you've had a really rough go...I wish you the best

Thanks mate...

I arrived late to class this morning... Lol


Anyways, I can get a nice rest tonite (hopefully)




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[Orijin0XazN]

Oh man.... I think you need a big hug! >_<

I'm sorry to hear about all that. 2012 will be much better I promise! Think happy thoughts. Enjoy your Thanksgiving!

[CatandDiallo]

I've found out in the past 1/2 year that when it rains, it reallllllyyyyyyy pours.

I'm sorry for the loss of everyone that you've lost. I know I don't like to be around my boyfriend when I am in a low state either. Maybe the fact that your girlfriend doesn't understand that you need to be alone at times like this and you're about to break up is a good thing.

You don't need to add another thing to the list (coping with a needy girlfriend when you have nothing to give). Maybe just take some time apart, and use that time to heal yourself.

Try to focus on school (if you can't it's okay, but if you're going to put energy into something, make it school), and just know that you gotta keep moving on.

I'm having a really rough time right now with a bunch of different things, so if you want to PM me, maybe I can help and let you know that you're not alone.

G'luck.

[Munizfire]

I've found out in the past 1/2 year that when it rains, it reallllllyyyyyyy pours.

I'm sorry for the loss of everyone that you've lost. I know I don't like to be around my boyfriend when I am in a low state either. Maybe the fact that your girlfriend doesn't understand that you need to be alone at times like this and you're about to break up is a good thing.

You don't need to add another thing to the list (coping with a needy girlfriend when you have nothing to give). Maybe just take some time apart, and use that time to heal yourself.

Try to focus on school (if you can't it's okay, but if you're going to put energy into something, make it school), and just know that you gotta keep moving on.

I'm having a really rough time right now with a bunch of different things, so if you want to PM me, maybe I can help and let you know that you're not alone.

G'luck.

I have thought that breaking up MIGHT be a good idea, it'll give me some space/time, but it's another big burden to carry. >.<

I have tried talking with her, but she isn't being cooperative.

Yea, I know you have been through some bad stuff lately, I saw the thread about the fire, and your bacteria a few weeks ago
Thanks a lot! Hope you get lucky as well!







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[CatandDiallo]

I have thought that breaking up MIGHT be a good idea, it'll give me some space/time, but it's another big burden to carry. >.<

Yeah, but it's less of a burden than making yourself even more miserable trying to fill the needs of a needy person. It doesn't mean you have to break up forever, just think about just taking some time to straighten out your poop * (AH! Didn't mean to trigger the censor - talking to other people while typing this and not paying attention!)

If she doesn't understand that, then you're probably better off without her anyways.

[Munizfire]

Yeah, but it's less of a burden than making yourself even more miserable trying to fill the needs of a needy person. It doesn't mean you have to break up forever, just think about just taking some time to straighten out your poop * (AH! Didn't mean to trigger the censor - talking to other people while typing this and not paying attention!)

If she doesn't understand that, then you're probably better off without her anyways.

i guess you're right

[mechnut450]

sounds like need to find a place to et lost for a day or so and do some herping to relax and get mind straight. I sitting home gonig nuts over the rain for the last 2 weeks ( spitting mostly ) and I got a lot of odd jobs outside to do doing nuts with cabin fever and wanting to spend the holiday with the gf.

[SlitherinSisters]

Oh my gosh that does sound pretty rough

Just remember that you will get through all this and look back on it as something that made you stronger. Don't let life defeat you, you are stronger than you think you are if you put your mind to it.