thank you i realize i was being childish now and i appreciate the words of wisdom i'm still a kid at heart and sometimes need a good lecture the all caps message i would delete if i could but i dunno how or can't it's embarrassing for myself but as emotional as i was at that point my post actually got me reported and the moderator said i should have gotten like 20 but since its my first i got 2 and it was removed all i did was remove my foul language and post it again still with the caps i should have changed it but it was a copy/paste and it was shear laziness at that point but thanks again for all the go-aheads and i will think about it...hard... next year i will be pairing a het albino and an albino pinstripe they are ready this year but i'm not i'm just a pup and never done it before but again sorry for throwing such a tantrum