Depression

[MoshBalls]

I thank everyone for all the advice and believe it or not I do everything that has been said. I do love myself very much and I am beyond happy with who I am. I work out daily and keep myself in great shape, look at my profile for a pretty recent pic, I have pets that I love ranging from snakes, duh, to cats and a dog as well as a few pet rats and some lizards. I would get a bird but well I hate them with a passion lol. I spend a lot of time in nature doing what I love doing which is camping, hiking, field herping, things like that. I go out and socialize when I have the time but usually just dont want to go through all the gettin ready to go out that I usually just have people come by or something like that. I didnt say that a girlfriend would fix everything because I know full well that isnt going to happen. I have admitted that there are problems I have that I need to work on and I am working on them. My biggest problem is that I am a people pleaser so I always put my friends before myself which I know is not a good way to live life. That is pretty much the hardest one for me to change. When I said I feel alone it is the emotional alone not physical. Maybe I took some of this wrong but honestly it feels as though some of the reply's are mildly attacking but odds are it is just me takin things wrong. As to meds the only one that worked I developed an allergy to and it didnt really help all that much. After about 5 months of taking it the dosage wasnt enough and my depression would hit out of nowhere, when I am not medicated the depression is more like a slow decline down and then a slow climb up on meds it is a huge drop off and then a struggle to recover from. I think that made sense lol. Anyways I am rambling again so gonna stop before I am not understandable anymore.

I hope my reply didn't sound attacking. I didn't mean it that way if it did. I just know how bad depression sucks and I hope you find your way out soon. You will find the right girl some day stick in there.