I just read this thread.. pondered for quite a while, and couldn't quite figure out the right thing to say in response to something that I have never quite experienced personally. I decided to click back to the forum and wait for someone else to tackle it head on. When I saw there was a response I clicked back and just read what Kevin wrote. I really appreciate your advice that you have given, Kevin.. and I really hope that he listens and takes it to heart. I lost my best best best buddy 2 yrs ago to a suicide. He started acting differently only 2 months prior to him taking his life and I had no idea what or why he was acting the way he was. He was either wired to the point that he could only sleep 2 or 3hours a night or was down in the dumps and didn't feel like doing anything. Before I, or his family or anyone else around him could really put a finger on what was happening, we found him in his house after putting a 20 guage in his mouth. This was the worst day of my life, and no doubt continues to effect me everyday.

Now I am in no way saying that the OP is suicidal in anyway, all I am saying is that if you are strong enough to suspect that there is something going on in your life that you are not comfortable with and you know that you can be happier.. then please, use Kevin's advice. Don't let it get to the point that you feel it is getting worse. I am no therapist myself, but I just know how serious things like this can get from my past experiences with losing my buddy. Hell, it could be something easier then you think to deal with/handle/get rid of. There are people out there that know all about these things and who can listen, and who can teach you how to deal with it. Just promise your friends here at BPnet that you will at least consider finding someone to listen to what's on your mind. It will ease our minds.. and most importantly, it will ease yours. I have never met you, I believe Kevin has never met you.. however we both have had similar experiences relate to us in some way or another -- some more extreme then others.. we care man. Best of luck, and always remember, every day is a mission: a mission to make yourself as happy as you possibly can.