it seems like it only takes some kind of tragedy to wake us up huh? especially when it happens to someone we know and love or close to home.
i HATE that.
sorry for hijacking the thread herewhat have i left unsaid?
but that is my biggest heart-breaker currently. i had a grandma and an aunt pass away within 3 months of each other some years ago and was not told about them for months hence was not able to go to their funerals and say my last goodbyes. in fact i had talked to my aunt on the phone days before she passed away and i STILL had not said what i needed to say, knowing that she was on her death bed. i was just too afraid to remind her. like "hey, um, since your about to die, i just wanted you to know..."
i just couldnt do it. and because of that i was overwhelmed by grief and that damn question haunting me 24/7 for months after hearing of her passing. i started drinking a bit more heavily just to drown out that question and the overwhelming feeling of sorrow i was walking around with. oh not to mention i was smoking at the time and my family couldn't remind me enough how i was gonna end up like my aunt if i didnt quit. she died of lung cancer after having smoked all her life.
i mean really! i'm already reeling with grief & they wanna hit me with THAT every time they see me!
anyways, drawing my hijacking to a close here, sorry, i was able to seek out therapy and quit smoking (in my aunt's honor...i kinda felt like i owed it to her. strange huh?) and quit drinking as well.
so yeah communication is very important and i learned that one the hard way.
ok i'm done. i'm sorry again for hijacking the thread with my stuff.
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