Thanks for the replies and support. For the record, I actually am seeing a therapist right now. It was recommended by my PCP when I first got sick thinking maybe it was just stress related. After I saw her once and was like, "no, really, Im good" I realized I wasnt being honest with her or myself. Although I have made great strides of improvement compared to where I was 3-4 years ago, I am nowhere near "good" or "healthy" right now. Luckily, my husband is very understanding and pretty much caters to my every need. Unfortunately I have become almost fully dependent on him, but thats another issue entirely.

Anyways, thanks again! I appreciate the support. And he is helping a lot right now because Im still working on getting everything perfect for him so Im spending so much time making sure his environment is safe and that he is happy, I dont have much time to think about other things. Tomorrow I am going to go back to work for the first time in like 2 weeks and I am probably going to be worrying about him like crazy though. Wish me luck.