Sorry to hear about your loss. I once had a rottie named baby that I had from when I was 2 until I had to put him down due to cancer when I was 16. I don't think in 14 yrs that dog left my side. When we had to make the trip to the vet to have him put down I held him all the way there and through the whole process. I may be a big muscle guy now but I don't think I've ever shed as many tears over anything as I did that day. I'm 32 now and still have his collar to this day.