I am deeply sorry for your loss.
Losing a treasured pet is never easy, whether it's been with us for years or only came home a week ago, we mourn them all.
I think it is wonderful you can come here and share with people who know what it feels like, and never have to deal with being told, "It as just a snake."
Having owned darn near every critter out there for a pet at one time or another, I can honestly say I had no idea you could come to love a snake as much as I do mine. I love mine every bit as much as my cats or my dog, or my ferret for that matter. Scaly, furry, feathery, it doesn't matter, you still love them and miss them when they are gone.
I am glad to hear your other snakes are recovering, I hope they can offer you some comfort in this difficult time.
Gale