Only to have the troubles of a 19 year old. Not meaning to bust on you, but your problems are but that of your world. Come into the world of the adult with family. Look at the issues you'll have to deal with once you're old enough,at least one mortgage, 2 car payments, a few kids in college, and the big one...a wife going through the change of life. PMS has nothing on this stage of a woman's life.
Kids are a wonderful thing as long as you can spank them and send them to bed.
If you've ever been in debt and then have something else go wrong and you just don't know where the money is going to come from to pay that unexpected bill. Have the police come to your door at 2 am. Have the hospital call you at 5 am. Have 2 traffic accidents in the only 2 cars you own within a month of each other. Get a call from your wife saying the doctor wants to see her immediately. Son says "we" need to talk and you're going to be a grandfather and they're going to have to move into your house. You find out you've got to have an operation and you'll be out of work for 6 months. You find out on December 20th, you're being fired after 20 years on the job.
I'm not saying you don't have problems, but in the scheme of the universe, your problems may not be as bad as you think they are.
Go to school, find a new girlfriend, do the best you can and drag your butt out of bed every morning because it's what you need to do. If you want to do something in zoology, you're going to need schooling. That is unless picking up trash at the zoo is in your future.
Sorry be so hardnosed, but growing up is your reality and reality is not kind to most of us.
Jim Smith