BG hasn't been quite that bad, but Big Gunns knows some of what you're feeling. You need to get away from it all. Take a vacation...NOW!!!!! It sounds like the gf might have a lot to do with your issues, but you're not telling us everything. Get in your car and drive to Florida....NOW!!!! Laying on the beach without anyone to bother you will really help you clear your head. Tell the boss you have the swine flu and roll.

It really seems like you need some sort of life change though. A vacation will help you realize what you want to do. Good luck to you. Don't just do nothing. BG tells everyone. If your life sucks...only you can change it....do it!!!!!!