I'm so sorry.The last month has been rough on me, as well. Lots of attempted suicides. My acquaintance, my friend's friend, attempted it about a month ago. 2 weeks ago, my best friend tried and almost succeeded and is doing very badly back at school. The last little bit, my mom has been suicidal. It's so rough when people you know or people you know who know others who have died. I'm so sorry for all of your losses. I truly hope things will pick up for everyone who's posted who have had rough times, including you.