I'm sorry to hear that! Things will get better! I recently had a good friend that I could not find for a few years. He contacted me out of the blue and we laughed and talked alot about old times. I couldnt wait to see him, but he said that he did not feel well from Lymes disease. He lost his job, his wife, his kid and was just very depressed. That in conjunction with his Moms cancer led him and his mom to commit suicide together!Was bad times for sure and I had a very hard time getting over it. But now I can look back on him as I knew him and smile!