dont feel stupid for posting.. its great that you've overcome your habit and your strong enough to give it another chance.. thats life, its constantly teaching you.. unfortunately it always seems to teach people the hard way.. but i guess its just trying to build character in people.. some cant handle it and break down.. but y'all have to understand that its not worth it to break down cause something crappy is just going to happen again.. roll with the punches and be happy you have your health and your family! good luck mate

p.s. i got hit with the bug about a year ago and if it wasn't for my wifey i would have maxed out my credit card on all kinds of morphs! lol.. but i found composure and am working with only a few girls and instead of buying more i'm going to produce my own! and in the meantime i'm going to gain as much knowledge and prepare a husbandry that can meet every standard of living for as many snakes that come out of my girls! dont limit yourself to just ONE reptile.. maybe just focus on breeding just ONE kind of reptile.. cheers