ok now that I am not on my iPhone maybe I can post a little better

I appreciate the support I am getting, I didn't know what to really expect.

This is something my wife and I have always discussed, we discussed having a blood child for all of about three seconds. My wife has never felt physically strong enough to carry a child safely.

We decided about 4 years ago Dylan would be our only child, but if we ever changed our minds it would be an adopted child.

Fast forward to yesterday morning. I am walking through the house picking up before my wife comes home from a night away with her mom and sisters, and I think to myself it would be nice to have another child around here, but I kinda drop it because last time we talked we both kinda blew it off as something we shouldn't do.

My father in law asked us to come out last night and on the way out there Jes says "I was thinking this morning about wanting to adopt a baby"

I was blown away! We have not talked about wanting another child in over 3 years, then bam! Jes brings it up the same day I was thinking about it.

When we decided we only wanted one child we were younger and we didn't know if we were even going to stay married!

Now we both know what we want more and we think a child will fill a place in our life that need filling.

I had a second child in my previous marriage who I lost custody of during the divorce. The basis of the divorce was infidelity and the little girl was the product of said infidelity. Since then I have wanted a little girl but did not feel like I was mentally ready for another child.

This is still pretty early in the stages of planning I am sure it will be at least a year before we begin looking for a child to adopt.

I keep trying to come up with enough negative reasons to not want to but I just can't. I keep wanting to come up with a reason to not do it because after the adoption is not the time to decide its a bad idea.

I just cant think of a reason not too. I go over the reasons I had before for not wanting to have another child, but even those don't even come close to deterring me.

Mike