Picking it up isn't enough, you actually have to eat it, metaphorically speaking.
I'll give you some truly well meant advice.
Don't post on this thread again for at least a week. In fact, don't make another post until tomorrow.
While you're not posting, think about what kind of person you want people to think of you as. Once you have an idea, plan out the steps to becoming that person. Then implement the steps necessary to achieve your goal.
20 minutes, an hour or two, not enough time. It may seem like it but it's not. Give this some thought, put it down, do something else, pick it up again and see if you still feel the same. Don't go singing to the world how you're going to do this and not do that, do it and let them notice without you telling them.
You can't rush it and when you start out as you did, it's even more difficult. You can't have a do over so just do a do better. Learning when to refrain from commenting is one of the things you need to learn.