My fiance and I are going to an amusement park tomorrow and suddenly, all this fear is flooding into me. Normally, I love coasters and the like, but all of the sudden, I'm terrified. I was told about this girl who got her feet cut off when she was ridding a drop zone like ride at Six Flags. I would never get on one of those rides because I have an immense fear of falling. But normally I love riding rides at parks. I like coasters that flip upside down and spin you around and do loops. Thats fun. I'm sitting here now, though, thinking about all the what ifs. What if my bar pops open? What if I fall out of my shoulder restraint? What if the restraint comes loose. What if something goes wrong and something breaks and I get hurt? All of these what ifs are scaring the daylights out of me and I don't know where its coming from. I rode Shockwave after someone died on it and I was fine. I loved that ride. What is going on now?

Here is something that might rationalize it but not really. When I was four I fell out of a ferris wheel and broke both arms and shattered my upper jaw. The only thing I remember about the accident was the before and after, nothing of the actual fall. So, I could see why rides could scare be, but they've never scared me in the past. My parents thought it was actually amazing that I ever step foot on another ride again, but I did and have been all my life. I even got back on a ferris wheel a few years ago. Scared me too much and I won't do it again, but I just don't understand where all this is coming from all of the sudden like this.

Any thoughts?