The main point this longer post is how should i change?

ya no. I hate school. I just 100% hate it. this year and next then done wiht high school. it starts on the 25th. I do like band and biology was cool last year but most other classes are trivial, I learn some stuff but not a lot to make the class more engaging. I feel like that I have learned more about things in the close to 2 months out of school than the 2 years of high school. I just feel inhibited. I regret that I never had a reptile or tropical fish or a bass guitar before the last 3 years. I mean the last three years I have found three things that I just absolutly love. Music, pet keeping, and building things. I got into trumpet in 4th grade, and bass guitar and drums in 8th. And I have always had at least a cat and a bird. and then agust of 02 i think i got my first tropical fish tank, now im upgrading to a 55 gallon. and I got the leopard geckos in January. And I am getting a snake very soon. And then I was always building things. I don't rember when but it was scince before preschool so was only less than a year to maybe 2 at most when I started building things. don't know for sure but I do rember building things soon after I could walk. I don't know how but I do have a few memories when I was about 5 months old. my mom thinks i was 5 months old but she doesn't remember. And I don't have a photographic memory its spotty but very early. I regret not knowing what i like to do earlier so I feel behind. anyway maybe its just responsibility that Im afraid of. I don't know but i do feel inhibited. My parents do all they can for me. I know that its not them or responsibility. If i wasn't responsible i wouldn't be able to get more pets. This is something I can't really tell my parents about because I don't want them to think that they haven't raised me right. And why go to my counsiler if he charges per hour when this forum is free and I get more than 1 opinion from good people. Not anything against him just that...yeah. I have no idea why im posting this because im not sure what i want to know from you guys. my best guess is how should I change so that I feel like I am doing something worth while because i don't feel like i am doing anything worth while at the moment. I think thats it worth while. IT is I don't see why anything is worth while at the moment. but I must because I keep doing what I like to do. And how do i motivate myself to do more homework. There is no reason not to. I t is easy I know the material like i was born knowing it. It just takes forever to do which does deter me.