Venting about my weird week/end

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I needed to vent, but wanted to do it somewhere where I know certain parties won't see it, since I don't want the whole situation to get worse through even more miscommunication (or whatever the heck it was).

So. My best friend is pregnant and lives several states away, and she wanted to make a trip to see me and the rest of her family, as we all live in different states, and she wanted to do some travelling before she was going to be preoccupied with a child. So she planned a trip where she'd fly to visit me for a week, then fly to visit her family. We discussed beforehand that I didn't have any available time to take off of work, but I'd be up for doing whatever we could in the evenings. She said that was fine, she'd bring stuff to entertain herself with.

My friend flew in, and my husband picked her up, and we had a real fun start to the week she was here. I apologized for the lack of time I'd be able to spend with her, and the lack of time available for doing things she wanted to do, AND for being in the middle of packing up to move. She reassured us it was alright, she was fine and having a good time regardless. So we have 4 good days, as far as I know.

Then, for the weekend, I toss out the idea of going to a casino on Saturday. I've never been, my husband said it was fun, and my friend was down. Well. It was not fun, and I was EXTREMELY overwhelmed. I have a sneaking suspicion that I'm probably somewhere on the autism spectrum, and situations like this one seem to add merit to that idea. I panicked a lot. Eventually, I calmed down and we all did some light gambling. I lost all the money I had brought (it wasn't much, and I was prepared to lose it), and was increasingly frustrated by the entire thing. I was also severely let down by the fact that it wasn't at all fun. So we drive home, talk, all lighten up, and go to a neat shop my friend had been wanting to visit.

Then we all go home, my friend and I nap, and my husband planned on going out drinking with friends. I decided to tag along and let my friend sleep. She was asleep both when we left and when we got back.

Then, Sunday morning, we get up and find my friend gone. She was packed all of her things and just left. I panic, thinking something terrible happened, and try to message her on FB... where I find I've been blocked. I try calling. The phone rings three times and goes to voicemail. I try again. Now it goes STRAIGHT to voicemail, and the mailbox is full. I call my mother-in-law, as she had met my friend before and they really liked each other. She asked if my friend was okay, and tell me friend says she's fine, she just didn't feel welcome at all and that she thought my husband and I didn't want to be hosting her, so she couldn't take it anymore and left.

I'm devastated. I had continually made sure she was comfortable and okay with what we were doing, and she never mentioned she wasn't feeling welcome. I thought maybe my frustration with not having enough time might have been taken as frustration with her.

The most upsetting part is that she was supposed to be here for my birthday on Tuesday, and I had plans for Sunday and today (I get off work early for a Dr. appt.) to hang out more in the available time.

My mother-in-law thinks that being pregnant may be leading my friend to not be thinking entirely rationally, but I feel incredibly hurt nonetheless. I was really excited to have my friend in on my birthday, as my husband and I are tight on cash at the moment, and weren't really planning on doing anything to celebrate.


I just needed to type that all out. It's been a wild ride.