I'm just hoping you're not over-stressing at this point. You went through hell with your first experience. Maybe take a breather. Maybe Hecate wasn't meant to be your long-term snake? Maybe Hecate was a learning experience and you should pump the brakes, take a breath, get your husbandry and everything spot on, get an exotic vet lined up and ready for when you need him/her. Take some time, really think about things rather than acting on impulse. Maybe your next snake (if you decide to go that route) will have a better experience as well. It's not just about us, these are living animals.