Something just hit me that I actually find disappointing in myself. Today I worked on my car a little bit, went to the gm and worked out and ran at the park, cleaned my snake/animal cages and fed everyone, and did a lot of tasks and things I enjoy doing. I went to print off the protocol pre-test to keep certified as an EMT-B and I stopped. I couldn't care less if I filled out that test and went to protocols and that wasn't the first time I had that type of feeling.

One of my instructors (not even an EMS instructor) told me that when you stopped learning, improving, and enjoying something in your life you should give it up. I think that goes doubly when that (albeit for a short time) involves the well being and care of others. Tomorrow instead of going to Pleasant Township for the test I'll probably just take my gear, radio, and uniforms back to the station so someone else can use them.

I hate to think that especially since I literally have one program left to complete for the associates degree, but I wont waste anyone's time or money for something I no longer enjoy doing. Sorry everyone, mostly myself.