I am trying to mentally prepare myself. I know that the hype in my mind is worse than what will happen.

My best friend was helping me feed the snakes--the last part of the fear I had left to get over. Well, my best friend is now not doing so well. He is a disabled vet in serious pain and can't get out of his apartment to get up here to help.

The first time we went to feed Skade, I was going to help...but had a bad feeling so I convinced him to help. Well, she was so malnourished that instead of being the gentle feeder she used to be before she went into foster care, she struck with an excitement that set me back a few steps in my fears.

But I worked through that, because the only other "option" was to send her back to malnourishment, so...no option.

Last week, she bit me. My fault, I was concerned cause her vent was red, so I was trying to feel for blockage--she, understandably defended herself.

So I've been through the worst, but can anyone help psych me up for my first time feeding? It'll only be me in the house--I'm not comfortable with the idea of my daughter being here for that yet.

We feed f/t. Even though best friend doesn't, I will be using tongs. I know the basics. Just the fear anxiety.

Anyone got wisdom/encouragement for me? LOL