Normally I'm the one that's always trying to give support and advice to people that are struggling with debt issues. But today I think it's my turn.

I hired a personal trainer recently for a course with them. 36 sessions, so nothing super long term. I am treating it like an 'educational course', because she is showing me tons of different things to use in the gym and apply in my life. I told her I can only afford these sessions, so she's giving me a super rounded plan, and free nutritional counselling. She's fantastic, and I wish I could train with her long term. But she understands and has been super supportive.

But the downside is that these sessions have eaten my 'cushion' that I normally have in my bank account. I'm not used to hitting the last $100 in my bank account. I'm normally used to seeing a few hundred, then I pay down my debts or put it into my TSA. Today, however, I looked and realized I had only a few dollars left in my account after bills. Turns out my insurance company (I recently switched) screwed up and charged me WAY too much (It looks like 6 months worth, instead of monthly like I had signed up for). Thankfully, I have my TSA and line of credit, so I have flexibility until it gets resolved.

Despite that, I did several calculations and realized that I am still going to be tight after my sessions are done. And I'm trying not to drag my other half into this discussion, but I'm feeling somewhat frustrated lately. He makes double, almost triple, what I do, and I find that we are splitting our costs 50/50.... But that's starting to put me into a bind, because our costs went up, his pay went up, and mine went down (I recently switched jobs to something more longterm and stable). So part of me is frustrated because I make less now, part of me is jealous because he makes more, and part of me doesn't know how to not come across like a nag when I have to bring up the fact that we just CAN'T do 50/50 until I'm back to making what I used to make.

So overall, I'm just feeling frustrated. My other half is very understanding, so I'm sure he won't hesitate to switch it more to a 60/40 kind of split, but part of me feels guilty to even ask.

Rock and a hard place. Just needed to get it off my chest somewhere slightly 'annonymous'. Not something I want to bring up to my close friends or family, because it's not something I want to really share with them.