So long story short, I was at the bar with my friend the other night, and I was chatting to a guy there cause my friend was off doing her single thing (I had told the guy I have a boyfriend). His brother came up about the same time my friend came and found me and she took a liking to the guy's brother. They invited us to hang out with them since they were leaving and since I thought my friend and the guy's brother wanted to get better acquainted I said sure. We went over to their house (maybe 5-10 minutes away) and we and their roommate hung out for a bit, then my friend, myself, the guy and his brother went for a walk. We split up to give them privacy for whatever they wanted to do and the guy and I hung out by this river/stream for a bit. My dumb ass (which had had a couple drinks) decided to walk through the stream and it was deeper than I thought and my shorts got soaked. I'm terrified of getting diseases (it didn't help that I had read that article about the girl who contracted that flesh-eating disease from a river just from having a cut on her leg) and when my friend called me asking where I was and if we could go I asked the guy if I could borrow their shower to wash off from the water. He let me and I asked if there was any way I could borrow some pants or something (since I felt it would defeat the purpose of washing off just to put the same pants back on) and he gave me a pair of shorts. Then I went and got my friend and the guy drove us back to our car. He said he wanted the shorts back, but I've texted him asking how to get them back to him and he never responded.

I don't know why, because I'm positive I can remember everything that happened and I know that I NEVER kissed or even touched the guy in any inappropriate way, but I'm oddly anxious/almost guilty-feeling. I have no idea why, and told my friends and even my boyfriend everything and they all said there's nothing I should be worrying about. My boyfriend wasn't mad or anything either. I don't know why I feel this way, maybe because I think since it "looked bad" to come home wearing a pair of guy's shorts that aren't my boyfriends that something should've happened and there should be a reason for me to be feeling terrible. But I'm positive I remember the night, I definitely would've known if something happened. Why am I so worried? Is it because that maybe I think that "what if I really can't remember everything?" and I'm freaking myself out? I have no idea.