I want him so bad...he was never abusive just jealousy made him attempt to control me I know its an excuse for him but all of us are guilty for sticking up for the ones we trully love...I dont want anyone but him and I cant do that you guys dont know the whole story....Ive been through so much with him he saved me from depression and thats literally the truth...I had to be on anti depressants half my life and a few months after being with him the doctor told me I dont need them....he was my first real relationship (lasting more than 2 months) we have been together even we he was over 1000 miles away. He was the first to take me to a dance well every dance throughout high school, the first to buy me flowers, jewelry, chocolates, stuffed animals. The first my real family ever approved of. He was the inspiration of many of my paintings all over my walls. Hes the first guy to ever tell me he loved me. The first to ever take me on a date, to the movies, out to eat at nice expensive resturants, the first I ever lived with, the first to ever still be with me on my birthday, the first I ever loved. I cant do this I know I cant go back to him but I cant just sit here and ignore his calls all morning and afternoon, I have to call him back....Ill let everyone know how that goes....
