A couple days ago my lower back started hurting really bad. Feels just like kidney stones, which I have had before. All my family has had them, as well as my in laws have had them. I know the symptons pretty well. A day later it locked up bad and we went to the ER around 7pm. The doctor having only looked at me sitting on the side of the hospital bed and my vitals decided it wasn't kidney stones and I just tweaked my back. He sent me home with a couple low doseage vicodin. A few hours and two vicodins later I had to have my wife drive me back to the ER because all I could do was scream because of the pain. This time I told them to basically cut the crap and find out whats wrong with me. They started me on an IV, gave me a several doses of morphine which just barely took the edge off and wheeled me off to radiology where I got a CT scan. Got the results back from that a hour and a half later. Doc says no kidney stones and that my back is just spasming a little and told me to just take some ibuprofen along with some of the low doseage vicodins he gave me. Bull crap! My back does not hurt this bad from a spasm or tweaking it at work.

Well its been two days since that I haven't slept in 4 days now (going on day 5) because of my pain. I am starting to halucinate. I cannot lay down at all, in any position. I can only sit in an old dinner table chair because its all that we have besides the bed. If I attempt to lay down at all the pain becomes unbelieveable and I can do nothing but scream until I can pick myself back up and sit up with back support or stand. In these upright positions I only have to grit my teeth or yell about once every couple minutes when it locks up or spasms. I am very tired and very cranky. These pills I have been given are doing absolutely NOTHING! They do not even take the edge off. There has been no improvement in my situation. The ER has simply told us to come in again. All they are going to do is maybe juice me up with just enough morphine that it takes the edge off, tell me to keep eating ibuprofen and send me a $1,500 bill. I know they have the means to find out whats wrong with me and treat me. At least enough so that I can comfortably get a few hours sleep so I can gather my bearings. They are a band-aid hospital and will not even try to help me!

We have yet to find a single doctor, even one we have to pay out of pocket for, around here that will take in a new patient. So far we haven't even found any within a couple hour drive in any direction who will accept me as a new patient!

What can I do? I am so strung out right now from the pain and lack of sleep and I'm at wits end. My wife has even caught me talking gibberish to someone who wasn't even there while I was in the bath tub earlier today. I don't really recall any real details of this, but I know I did it.