Oh man that's awfulKeep your hopes up, I know it's got to be hard! I've been so thankful to have the animals, especially horses. I ride with my family at least once a week, it's a life saver to be able to get away from it all, even for just an hour or two. I hope you have something joyful to lose yourself in.
I learned the hard way not to ignore my own needI ended up with an infection in one of my ovaries, it was god awful! That's the best piece of advice you could give any caregiver of sorts!
Good luck to you and never give up!