Down and out.

[Oxylepy]

Another good point I failed to address. You may need to seek help, and that can help you a lot, but what I was getting at is that you are the only one with the power to change you, outside help is useful, but it only helps if you're willing to change.

In highschool I went to a lot of psychologists and they will actually drop you as a client if they see you are completely adverse to change, its their right to do so, however if a hospital (psychiatric) determines that you need help they'll just put you with someone else, and you end up bouncing around until your psychiatrist decides you wont find anyone.

Personally I quit taking meds (Celexa) because of being in that active level of depression where one day I flat out decided I was going to kill myself but instead of going through with it I stopped taking my meds to decide later and realized it was a bad plan.

Anyway, the moral of my stupidity is that meds can definitely help, but they wont be a quick fix. Seeking outside help can definitely help if you go in actually wanting to go through with what they will tell you, but thats part of you actually deciding to change, its really all in your own hands, and it sucks because when you're depressed, truly depressed, you will feel like you have no power to change yourself, and it take a lot of work to really get there which is NEVER what a depressed person wants to hear.

And if anyone ever tells you to "snap out of it" punch them in the face. That is horrid advice and will do nothing more than make you feel worse. NO ONE has the power to just "snap out of it" it's impossible to do, they're pretty much telling you to suppress your feelings, which is EXTREMELY counterproductive.