Worst day of my life.

I lost my baby. The worst part? I could have saved him. I was right next to him when it happened. We were cleaning off my old desk to move it out, and Mufasa was trying to step onto it when his paw slipped. He broke his neck and died a few seconds later. i hope to god he didnt feel any pain.. after he fell, his body seized up and he was shaking. i thought he was having a seizure.. he hit the floor, and i grabbed him and turned him so he was facing me. my mom was telling me not to touch him, and i didnt know what to do.. as i watched him shake, i realised that he wasn't having a seizure, but something worse was happening. he lost control of his bladder, which confirmed my fear of a broken neck. he whined a bit, and then he was gone.. ive never cried so hard in my life. for the first time, i didnt understand death. i didnt understand what had happened, or why. i just held him, lifeless in my arms. i still cant believe it all happened.. he had just turned two last week. god i would do anything to have him sleeping in bed or running around right now...

I've never felt so much pain in my life. To know that one minute, he was being as rambunctious as ever, and the next.. dead in my arms. This friend, who I raised and have been with from the moment he was born. This friend who had always been there for me, and always loved me, and even saved me from depression... Is gone. I just wish so much I could have caught him. If given the opportunity, I would gladly sacrifice my right arm (I'm right-handed and draw/paint for money) to get him back. He would have loved to see the new desk, too...

Don't ever forget how much I love you, 'Fasa. You were my only friend, and I can't thank you enough.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjuU1m5yQvY

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what I would do. He looked like a wonderful kitty and I teared up reading this and watching the video. Rest in peace little kitty

I'm sorry for your loss. He lools and sounds like he was a wonderful cat and friend. :(

OMG I can't imagine how hard that was for you.. I'm so sorry for your loss. The video was something else. I've never seen a cat with that much personality!

I am really sorry for your loss hun, and I totally teared up while watching the video. :(

I am so sorry for your loss. You can tell by the video that you two had a very special relationship. You cannot blame yourself. You know that had you the foresight to see what was going to happen, you wouldn't have let it happen. So there's no "blame" to be had.

Rest now, Mufasa.

So sorry for your loss. You can cleary see in the video how much the two of you loved each other.

Godspeed to Mufasa!!!!

So sorry to hear of your loss. :( I have a kitty that I'm very close to as well. I can only imagine how painful it is to lose him.

I'm sorry for you loss, its never easy losing a good friend

oh my god ..........

I'm crying right now right along with you ....

This is my worst fear. I can't tell you how much I feel for you right now.

Lots of hugs ..... :( :( :(

The video made it 100x worse. You poor girl.. I wish I could hug you forever.

Awwwe I am so sorry for your loss :( that must be brutal :( losing pets is the worst, cause they are the best friends you could ask for :( You can tell from the video he loved you a lot, and as people said above, it was no fault of yours , thats just a terrible accident :tears: