just a little something i wanted to share (long)

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Originally Posted by RickyNY

Triple T, I was at work all day and I just read this. I'm glad you're doing better now, and I hope you continue to improve daily. ;)

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[emoji4] thank you very much! it really means a lot to me right now. the wedding this weekend has me feeling all types of anxious, but i'm trying to channel my busy mind into a busy body and accomplish things i've been severely slacking on.

i'm trying! baby steps!!!

Did you like my t-shirt idea? :gj:

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Originally Posted by rickyny

did you like my t-shirt idea? :gj:

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ricky no

OK sorry :(

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Originally Posted by RickyNY

OK sorry :(

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[emoji14] text doesn't come off as light-hearted as its intentions. [emoji4]

I know!! :P
I fixed the t-shirt, I think you're going to like it now!

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Originally Posted by tttaylorrr

this might get a little TMI but, oh well. i felt i needed to get this off my chest.


i have anxiety and depression; i've been battling with it ever since i was ~16 (i'm 26). for almost two months now i've been going through a spot of fairly deep depression, and it sucks. work has been miserable (50+ hours a week for a month straight), my social life has been practically non-existent, and it all started to take a toll on me. for almost two months i kind of stopped showering, brushing my teeth, my hair, stopped cleaning and doing laundry, eating like sh00t because i stopped caring about any sort of diet, and generally just trying to do as little as possible.

a couple days ago, i noticed Corny needed a total enclosure cleaning. it took a lot from me to get started, but i realized i had to do it for him; this wasn't about me right now. i went ahead and cleaned everything and put him back. i felt really accomplished.

after that i looked around my room and decided well, i did one thing today. let's try two. i picked up my dirty clothes and hung the clean clothes that i left in the laundry basket for almost two weeks. i actually started feeling good.

two days ago, my python gang were all available for handling, so i decided to take photos. seeing everyone out and in beautiful lighting made me realize i've been doing an awesome job with them; they're all thriving in my care and that's all because of ME. despite how i've been feeling, THEY feel awesome because of me. i kind of had a moment taking those photos, and it really helped me get a leg up to get out of this hole i found myself in.

that night i cleaned myself up and took care of myself. tonight i'm going to go buy a new dress for a wedding this weekend, and i'll be cleaning out Spaghetti's enclosure and doing my laundry.


baby steps, but i'm feeling better. these baby steps were possible because my noodles made me realize i am capable of caring for myself and others, despite how i'm feeling. this all might sound silly to someone who has never dealt with a mental health disorder, but these kinds of break-throughs are a big deal to someone like me.

thanks for reading. i hope you all don't think i'm some weird-o!!!

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You ARE a weird-o, wear it proudly...

- You're a weird-o because most people freak out when they hear we have snakes as pets, but we love them the same as a cat/dog.
- You're a weird-o because you have a full time job and work long hours, most kids your age don't/can't do that.
- You're a weird-o because you realized you were depressed and decided to do something about it - not whine and ask for pity like most would.
- You're a weird-o because you were honest with yourself and realized you had a "problem" that needed attention and you're taking the steps to rectify and better your situation....

BE PROUD - YOU BIG WEIRD-O!!!!

I wish you continued success in reaching your goals, both personal and professional.

Oh, and what kind of weird-o tells everyone about their problems? A weird-o that wants to find and help others in their situation because they realize the importance of what's happening and want to be a part of something bigger than self pity.

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Originally Posted by BR8080

You ARE a weird-o, wear it proudly...

- You're a weird-o because most people freak out when they hear we have snakes as pets, but we love them the same as a cat/dog.
- You're a weird-o because you have a full time job and work long hours, most kids your age don't/can't do that.
- You're a weird-o because you realized you were depressed and decided to do something about it - not whine and ask for pity like most would.
- You're a weird-o because you were honest with yourself and realized you had a "problem" that needed attention and you're taking the steps to rectify and better your situation....

BE PROUD - YOU BIG WEIRD-O!!!!

I wish you continued success in reaching your goals, both personal and professional.

Oh, and what kind of weird-o tells everyone about their problems? A weird-o that wants to find and help others in their situation because they realize the importance of what's happening and want to be a part of something bigger than self pity.

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holy wow what a wonderful post. thank you so so much for your kind words. i'm very, very thankful for the community i have here and how accepting you all have been to me.

i did hesitate to share my story because i didn't want people to think i was seeking attention; i just really wanted to share a story where my snakes actually helped me through a tough time in my life right now. there's been some talk on here about snakes/pets and their role in mental health, so i felt it could be appropriate.

i'm proud of my baby steps today, and i promised myself i'd continue taking those steps!

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Originally Posted by tttaylorrr

this might get a little TMI but, oh well. i felt i needed to get this off my chest.


i have anxiety and depression; i've been battling with it ever since i was ~16 (i'm 26). for almost two months now i've been going through a spot of fairly deep depression, and it sucks. work has been miserable (50+ hours a week for a month straight), my social life has been practically non-existent, and it all started to take a toll on me. for almost two months i kind of stopped showering, brushing my teeth, my hair, stopped cleaning and doing laundry, eating like sh00t because i stopped caring about any sort of diet, and generally just trying to do as little as possible.

a couple days ago, i noticed Corny needed a total enclosure cleaning. it took a lot from me to get started, but i realized i had to do it for him; this wasn't about me right now. i went ahead and cleaned everything and put him back. i felt really accomplished.

after that i looked around my room and decided well, i did one thing today. let's try two. i picked up my dirty clothes and hung the clean clothes that i left in the laundry basket for almost two weeks. i actually started feeling good.

two days ago, my python gang were all available for handling, so i decided to take photos. seeing everyone out and in beautiful lighting made me realize i've been doing an awesome job with them; they're all thriving in my care and that's all because of ME. despite how i've been feeling, THEY feel awesome because of me. i kind of had a moment taking those photos, and it really helped me get a leg up to get out of this hole i found myself in.

that night i cleaned myself up and took care of myself. tonight i'm going to go buy a new dress for a wedding this weekend, and i'll be cleaning out Spaghetti's enclosure and doing my laundry.


baby steps, but i'm feeling better. these baby steps were possible because my noodles made me realize i am capable of caring for myself and others, despite how i'm feeling. this all might sound silly to someone who has never dealt with a mental health disorder, but these kinds of break-throughs are a big deal to someone like me.

thanks for reading. i hope you all don't think i'm some weird-o!!!

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You most certainly are not weird! I have been going through bipolar disorder, anxiety, and PTSD for a great length of time in my life. I am moving out of my house today and away from my boyfriend of 14 1/2 years to start a new life. Why I am moving is a whole other story and I won't bore with you the story but I am embarking on my own journey so that I can get better and get the help I need. Right now I live in the country in Pennsylvania and their is no help put here, buses don't even run. I gave up all of animals due to leaving because it is for the best but I can definitely say that when I used to take care of them during one of my worst days it helped make me feel better and very accomplished.

I even want to go back to school to become an addictions counselor because I lost my niece and nephew to heroin and my own to daughters are recovering heroin addicts. I want to help people that struggle with this. You are a very strong person and I admire you for recognizing that you have issues.

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Originally Posted by ballpythonluvr

You most certainly are not weird! I have been going through bipolar disorder, anxiety, and PTSD for a great length of time in my life. I am moving out of my house today and away from my boyfriend of 14 1/2 years to start a new life. Why I am moving is a whole other story and I won't bore with you the story but I am embarking on my own journey so that I can get better and get the help I need. Right now I live in the country in Pennsylvania and their is no help put here, buses don't even run. I gave up all of animals due to leaving because it is for the best but I can definitely say that when I used to take care of them during one of my worst days it helped make me feel better and very accomplished.

I even want to go back to school to become an addictions counselor because I lost my niece and nephew to heroin and my own to daughters are recovering heroin addicts. I want to help people that struggle with this. You are a very strong person and I admire you for recognizing that you have issues.

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YOU are a strong person, too!!! you know i've been reading your posts and i truly empathize with your struggles. you're taking HUGE strides to better yourself and i look up to that strength! you're on your way to amazing things. stay strong, sister. [emoji4]