Just an update:
Chad and I have been talking and we are trying to work through things. As many times as we have gone through this, I still feel like we need to try and get through our differences. I DO love him and I would love to spend the rest of my life with him, so I hope we can get through this bump, or should I say mountain, in the road.
I'm :please: this is the last time I have to go through this, as my heart can't take anymore, but on a brighter note I'm looking towards the future with my family. Thank you everyone for your wise words and advice, it really meant a lot to me! <3