I lost my baby. The worst part? I could have saved him. I was right next to him when it happened. We were cleaning off my old desk to move it out, and Mufasa was trying to step onto it when his paw slipped. He broke his neck and died a few seconds later. i hope to god he didnt feel any pain.. after he fell, his body seized up and he was shaking. i thought he was having a seizure.. he hit the floor, and i grabbed him and turned him so he was facing me. my mom was telling me not to touch him, and i didnt know what to do.. as i watched him shake, i realised that he wasn't having a seizure, but something worse was happening. he lost control of his bladder, which confirmed my fear of a broken neck. he whined a bit, and then he was gone.. ive never cried so hard in my life. for the first time, i didnt understand death. i didnt understand what had happened, or why. i just held him, lifeless in my arms. i still cant believe it all happened.. he had just turned two last week. god i would do anything to have him sleeping in bed or running around right now...
I've never felt so much pain in my life. To know that one minute, he was being as rambunctious as ever, and the next.. dead in my arms. This friend, who I raised and have been with from the moment he was born. This friend who had always been there for me, and always loved me, and even saved me from depression... Is gone. I just wish so much I could have caught him. If given the opportunity, I would gladly sacrifice my right arm (I'm right-handed and draw/paint for money) to get him back. He would have loved to see the new desk, too...
Don't ever forget how much I love you, 'Fasa. You were my only friend, and I can't thank you enough.
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