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[brownguy]

The main point this longer post is how should i change?

ya no. I hate school. I just 100% hate it. this year and next then done wiht high school. it starts on the 25th. I do like band and biology was cool last year but most other classes are trivial, I learn some stuff but not a lot to make the class more engaging. I feel like that I have learned more about things in the close to 2 months out of school than the 2 years of high school. I just feel inhibited. I regret that I never had a reptile or tropical fish or a bass guitar before the last 3 years. I mean the last three years I have found three things that I just absolutly love. Music, pet keeping, and building things. I got into trumpet in 4th grade, and bass guitar and drums in 8th. And I have always had at least a cat and a bird. and then agust of 02 i think i got my first tropical fish tank, now im upgrading to a 55 gallon. and I got the leopard geckos in January. And I am getting a snake very soon. And then I was always building things. I don't rember when but it was scince before preschool so was only less than a year to maybe 2 at most when I started building things. don't know for sure but I do rember building things soon after I could walk. I don't know how but I do have a few memories when I was about 5 months old. my mom thinks i was 5 months old but she doesn't remember. And I don't have a photographic memory its spotty but very early. I regret not knowing what i like to do earlier so I feel behind. anyway maybe its just responsibility that Im afraid of. I don't know but i do feel inhibited. My parents do all they can for me. I know that its not them or responsibility. If i wasn't responsible i wouldn't be able to get more pets. This is something I can't really tell my parents about because I don't want them to think that they haven't raised me right. And why go to my counsiler if he charges per hour when this forum is free and I get more than 1 opinion from good people. Not anything against him just that...yeah. I have no idea why im posting this because im not sure what i want to know from you guys. my best guess is how should I change so that I feel like I am doing something worth while because i don't feel like i am doing anything worth while at the moment. I think thats it worth while. IT is I don't see why anything is worth while at the moment. but I must because I keep doing what I like to do. And how do i motivate myself to do more homework. There is no reason not to. I t is easy I know the material like i was born knowing it. It just takes forever to do which does deter me.

[rabernet]

You sound like you are very gifted, but not being challenged. Are you taking advanced level classes to keep you engaged?

You love music, building and pet keeping. Are you planning to go to college to become a musician, architect or veterinarian? Have you thought what you want to do when you get out of school, or better yet, what type of career you want?

It's been many moons ago for me (but feels like yesterday) that I was in high school. I didn't like high school either, but I have to tell you, if you have the opportunity to go to college - take it! It's SO much better than high school.

As I've aged, I've gotten to where I really appreciate my education now (I did go onto a university after high school).

If you want to go to college, you need to keep your grades up - does that motivate you at all?

It is tough when you are trying to protect your parents, but maybe if you tell them that it's nothing that they did, but you need them to know how you are feeling. They may feel very honored that you trust them and they raised you to trust them to be able to share anything with them. And they may be able to help you.

You're also going through a scarey time. 2 years before you graduate and if you don't have plans after that - and even becoming an adult is a scarey transistion. But it's normal. We've all been through that before.

Enjoy the rest of your summer break! Some kids here in Atlanta went back to school this week, and the remainder go back to school next Monday. I can't believe how early school is starting now! We didn't start until after Labor Day.

Take care!

[daniel1983]

I love school, but I have a younger brother that is completely opposite. He has always hated school. But he is now a sophmore in college. He has certain goals for life and he knows that he needs to go to school and do well in order to reach his goals. Is that not enough motivation? You have to think about what your goals in LIFE are and how school will help you reach those goals.

[tigerlily]

Yeah, high school is not always a cake walk, but it is an essential foundation. (whether or not you decide to continue on to college) I am completely a goal oriented person, and it helps me enormously. So my suggestion is to establish a list of things you would like to accomplish. If I do 2 hours of homework, then I can spend 1/2 hour playing with the pets or guitar. If I keep my grades up then I can get that new pet. Try to figure out where you would like to go in life. (now that is sometimes a tough one) What kind of jobs interest you, and then maybe even find a part time job on weekends and test them out. If things aren't working for you, then yes you need to change. Don't expect to do the exact same thing and come out with a different result, it doesn't usually happen. I am all for talking with parents if you feel comfortable enough. I was fortunate enough to have a wonderful set of parents and could always talk things out. If nothing else your parents may be a little more sensitive to your needs, even if can't think immediately of something to help. Anyway, talking is a great solution and I commend you. I think you'll be able to figure out what will work for you, but just make sure to explain those needs to others. Anyway that's my opinion for what it's worth.

[wendyhoo9]

I remember Junior year being especially hard. While I did very well in schoolI also knew I wanted to be a marine mammal trainer which required a college degree. My goals helped to motivate me most of the time. It is very hard to find motivation though when you can's see results right away. I actually teach high school biology and just finished my master's degree in May...if it makes you feel any better about half way through my program I felt I wasn't getting much from the classes and really wanted to just stop. But I knew I had to do it (even if it seemed silly or unimportant) if I wanted to keep teaching, which I LOVE, then I had to do it. Unfortuntately, one thing you learn as you get older is with all the freedoms to make your own choices you actually have a lot of factors the limit your choices: time, money, responsibilities. You do a lot of things you may not want to do just to pay the bills or to make it to the point where you CAN do the things you want.

Just know that even adults suffer from bouts of insecurities, inabilities to make decisions, and utter confusion. The upside to all of this is that there are things worth doing it all for! Embrace the things you love and look at the rest as the drudge you must do to continue to do those things. The best way to make it through is to find what truly motivates you because no one else can do it for you.

My lowest point had nothing to do with school but with a bad relationship in college and a weight gain that put me at 220 lbs. No amount of parental/friendly advice could help me out of that one (though the support was much appreciated). I had to find my own reasons to make a change and once I did I stuck to it. I was confident enough to leave the relationship and lost 90 lbs.

I do suggest you talk about it, because while no one else may motivate you, talking to others will help you sort out what your feeling and it provides a great sounding board. It's amazing how actually saying something out loud can make you look at a situation in new ways that might help you out. And don't worry about your parents, they sound like they love you and all parents want to help. Their focus will be on helping you, just be truthful and upfront about everything. At the very least you can benefit from their supportive understanding, even if they can't solve your problems.

Good luck!

[Ginevive]

You sound alot like me. School was not challenging enough for me, and I purposely avoided answering questions out loud because I was afraid that other ppl would think I was a nerd. I loved art class and hated everything else; but, dropping out was the worst mistake I have ever made. I got my GED but it ain't the same. I encourage you to stick it out, enjoy your hobbies; they will get you through. I could have gone anywhere career-wise, but I am stuck in a dead end job now and I really see no alternative in my area.
i too, learned about my passions at a later age. I love metal music, and had never even ehard of it until I was in my late teens! I led a sheltered young life I guess you could say. But instead of regretting not taking things up earlier, you should concentrate on learning/doing things now!

[brownguy]

WOW. what can I say. I appreciate all your responses very much. Its releaving to know im not alone with this. I have not decided what I see myself doing in ten years. My mom tells me to take it one day at a time. Ill stick with that for now. No I am not in advanced courses. The teachers never recommended me for them which I don't know why we didn't ignore the recomendations anyway but now its a double edged sword. My mom says I cant because my grades are low which they really aren't. But my grades are lower because I am bored. I know exactly what I have to do But it is a different story tring to do it. I do try and haven't given up yet. I will try and it may or may not work out so. And as far as me not talking to them its for their own protection. I tried seeing a counsiler but I just didn't like it. He was good but. I know they can't help but worry, I worried about my pets over my 8 day vacation even though I got 2 good pet sitters one being my sister who shares in my intrests about pets anyway. (btw my vacation sucked by the way because the store didn't get a cd I had wanted for months and it would come out while I was away which absolutly ruined my trip.) Thank you everyone I think the first day of school I won't be as miserable but I will still be miserable just because my summers over. I am glad to know that I can come here if I really can't go to my parents there should be more sites like this one where people can share about what they are intrested in ask questions if they are unsure and also if they just feel down be comforted by people who care. thank you again words cannot express my gratitude.

Ps. California Kingsnake or BP is still cant decide. Maybe I will get one and then the other later...

[rabernet]

Well, being that I'm a first time snake owner, and of a BP...my vote goes to the BP's! LOL


No other snake grabbed my attention like the balls. They are hands down my favorite (no offense to other species! LOL)

Robin

[brownguy]

I will keep a running tally until the day I get the snake. this i important stuff right here