life updates

[shelliebear]

Oh my gosh it has been a long time.
So many things have happened.
I got married...and divorced....I am in a new relationship...and moved to Florida. Due to the big move I had to rehome all 8 of my snakes.
That was 7 months ago. I still miss them. My heart is broken. 5 bps 2 corns 1 gopher snake. All gone. I raised them from babies. I took them out of bad homes. I built their racks from scratch. I held them every day.
Sigh. :,( how do you get over the pain?
I rehomed them to haven aquatica rescue in Spokane. From there they were given to great homes. Nergal, my favorite, most sweet and kissable bp, went to a female vet tech. I'm sure she loves him. But I loved him more :,(

Anyway. Florida has been a bust. I was homeless for a while because I was kicked out abruptly...turns out our roommate wanted a relationship with my bf...and didn't want me there. I had and still have a job and so did he and yet we couldn't afford housing. It was awful. Now we live in a motel. Ugh. At least I have shelter.
Things just went all wrong and in the chaos I forgot about bp.net. I just wanted to, on my 22nd bday (got an email wishing me a happy bday), come back and say hey.
I miss my scaly babies.
What an awful, terrible experience this has been. Truly. And no snake kisses to make it better.

<3 nergal. Katarra. Kitty Kat. Madison. Mantra. Cheesecake. Skittles. And sundown. You are sorely missed.

[MarkS]

Sorry to hear that, life does have a tendency to kick you when you're not looking. The one thing you can always count on no matter what happens is that eventually it'll change. Hang in there.

[ballpythonluvr]

Well, I do want to say Happy Birthday to you for starters. I am very sorry that things have gone this way for you. Hang in there, it will get better. My goodness, I haven't seen you on here for years so welcome back! You are still so young and have so much potential, so it can only get better for you. I think a lot of things have changed for a lot for us on here. Both of my daughters took a downward spiral in their lives and they are both recovering drug addicts. My niece and nephew both overdosed on heroin and lost their lives. If you need to talk, PM me and I will listen.

[anicatgirl]

This made me tear up... I am sorry to hear of your situation, and I wish you all my luck sweetie... At least you know for sure that they are safe. Now you just need to be safe

[shelliebear]

Hard to be safe when week to week you don't know if you will have a roof over your head. I live in an awful area of town. I have had some awful things happen to me.
I've had to beg for money for food before and just...no bueno. No insurance for health.
Have also developed a bad, bad alcohol problem. I won't go into details here as I'm sure this is the wrong forum. But I'm just saying, everything is so difficult.
Some days I hope I don't wake up. But I do and I go on somehow.
In the summer being homeless in brutal. The heat burns you to a crisp, bugs eat you alive. It is humid and hot.
I want to go home. None of this was my idea. My boyfriend decided within two months he was going to move to Florida with a longtime female friend of his whom he said he had no desire for....though I knew she did for him. He didn't believe me and turns out I was right. That's why we got kicked out. He didn't tell her I was coming and she didn't want me there, she wanted him and lied about being ill. I didn't want to move. I was confident after his ex wife took the house back that, if given enough time, we would find a new place. And he moved within two months and left me behind for six months.
We are still together but I struggle terribly with trust. I feel he wronged me by moving a way. "Hell hath no fury...." Well, it is true. I am still angry and struggle daily. But.. we love each other and are trying. Life is just so hard.
You ever feel like just laying down and not getting up cause you're body feels so heavy from depressions? Yeah. Me
Who ever imagines they are going to be homeless? Now I understand what they go through.

[shelliebear]

I'm not sure if he moved due to a midlife crisis or what but...this was all a bad idea.