Life is short.

[cecilbturtle]

Most of you don't know i'm into martial arts. Jiu Jitsu mainly. I trained since i was young. Tonight some good friends were killed in a car accident. A drunk driver decided they shouldn't live anymore. He left an 8 year old boy parentless. I want to fight. i know its selfish but i want to hurt them.

last week I was told my heart is so bad that its like the heart of a 60 year old and I'm in danger of a stroke. Genetics are a B...ch. I want to live. I want his parents to live. I want to hurt the one who took them from him.

i ask "why?". i want to hurt someone. I want to make someone responsible and "pay". i want to not feel that way but i do. I wish I was the guy that offered hugs to the ones that hurt but I'm the one who offers pain. Right or wrong it's who I am. once upon a time i was a firefighter. volunteer. I held men, women and children as they took their last breaths. I dont want those memories but I have them. They are mine. my nature in these situations turned into a need for retribution. I want to just let it go but i cant. Again I want to fight.

I once cut a fallen tree off a house. A man was trapped underneath. I held him. All he said was "I'm sorry." over and over. he died in my arms. I kept cutting that tree till it was a pile of saw dust. Taking that tree away didnt take that experience away. This is YOUR life! DON'T act like it isn't yours!

[rlditmars]

Sorry for your loss. I know it sucks because it seems as if the drunk driver always survives the wreck and the innocent are lost. But perhaps that's the payback. They are left to live with the aftermath instead of dying and getting off easy. It can't do your heart good to feel as you do so try and find some peace. Be there for the boy as much as you can and maybe that will help you to find some comfort. But trust me I get the need to hurt.

[TheWinWizard]

And that will bring them all back won't it?

[Annarose15]

I lost both of my parents to a car accident when I was nine. The other driver wasn't drunk, but also was unharmed. The anger will take years to go away, and the pain never really does, but the worst thing you can do is avoid talking about them, especially to their son. Treat him like the adult he has been forced to become early. It only hurt me more when people seemed to avoid the topic (even happy stories) of my parents when I was around. I felt like I lost them in more than body, because all but a few people were afraid to even tell me the things I was never going to learn for my self.

[foxoftherose]

Hey, TheWinWizard, there's no reason to be snappy. We all know that it won't bring anyone back, but if there WAS somehow someone responsible, attacking them would make us feel better. Can you not understand that? It's not pretty, or good, or right, but it's certainly something that would bring an immediate sense of gratification to me as well.
To the OP, I understand what you mean. My health is a piece of crap for reasons outside my control. I'm twenty, and I've had four moderate to major operations to try to treat my digestive issues, and have suffered from various psychiatric disorders since I was six. Because of this, I lost out on most of my childhood and teenage years, and had to grow up way to early. If there was someone responsible for my troubles, I'd want to make them suffer, even if it couldn't change anything.

[Skiploder]

Most of you don't know i'm into martial arts. Jiu Jitsu mainly. I trained since i was young. Tonight some good friends were killed in a car accident. A drunk driver decided they shouldn't live anymore. He left an 8 year old boy parentless. I want to fight. i know its selfish but i want to hurt them.

last week I was told my heart is so bad that its like the heart of a 60 year old and I'm in danger of a stroke. Genetics are a B...ch. I want to live. I want his parents to live. I want to hurt the one who took them from him.

i ask "why?". i want to hurt someone. I want to make someone responsible and "pay". i want to not feel that way but i do. I wish I was the guy that offered hugs to the ones that hurt but I'm the one who offers pain. Right or wrong it's who I am. once upon a time i was a firefighter. volunteer. I held men, women and children as they took their last breaths. I dont want those memories but I have them. They are mine. my nature in these situations turned into a need for retribution. I want to just let it go but i cant. Again I want to fight.

I once cut a fallen tree off a house. A man was trapped underneath. I held him. All he said was "I'm sorry." over and over. he died in my arms. I kept cutting that tree till it was a pile of saw dust. Taking that tree away didnt take that experience away. This is YOUR life! DON'T act like it isn't yours!

If you have trained in martial arts, then you are well aware that the "martial" aspect is but one of many disciplines that are taught. Others are concentration, mental discipline and focus. Your urge to hurt something means that not only are you human, but that your mentors in the arts have not taught you how to focus anger, rage, impatience and other negative energies onto positive ones.

I will be the first to admit that I am unfamiliar with ju-jitsu. I am going to ASSUme that like any martial art, that mental discipline and emotional discipline are tenets. If they are not, I would strongly suggest you try your hand at a new martial discipline - one that does not put such a heavy focus into the martial aspect.

If you train in martial arts to become a better fighter, then you are putting a lot of work and energy into something that you may never use. In fact, most martial arts stress the avoidance of violence and teach you how to girder yourself emotionally and mentally against succumbing to violent urges - revenge being one of those urges.

If you truly train in martial arts and embrace the philosophy and tenets of them; then you get a lifetime of use out it.

[MrLang]

Sorry for your loss. I believe it's good practice to find healthy coping mechanisms to deal with tragedy or change in life. It sounds like you have some positive outlets available. Do what you know is right.




Don't take this as insensitive, but...

I saw on the main page:

Post - Life is short.
Newest post - Skiploder

Already improved my day before even opening the thread. Sure enough, he delivers! Epic post.

#1 Fanboy

[Skiploder]

Sorry for your loss. I believe it's good practice to find healthy coping mechanisms to deal with tragedy or change in life. It sounds like you have some positive outlets available. Do what you know is right.




Don't take this as insensitive, but...

I saw on the main page:

Post - Life is short.
Newest post - Skiploder

Already improved my day before even opening the thread. Sure enough, he delivers! Epic post.

#1 Fanboy

Someday you and I will meet and you will be very disappointed..........

[Foschi Exotic Serpents]

Skip never gives himself any credit... And it seems the OP doesn't either.

I suck at apathy. Always have. But you're human. This too shall pass...

[wilomn]

Feel it, decide what to do with it, do that, move on. Dwelling serves nothing. :cens0r::cens0r::cens0r::cens0r: happens sums it up as well as anything. I rarely ask why, I just try my best to be my best. I'd recommend you do the same. That guy ain't so bad.