Hello all. I really want a pet T. I want to watch him/her (hmer) grow. The only thing is, i also would love to be able to hold hmer! I love black/white, black and blues, oranges. :/
I was told a Mexican Red Rump Tarantula would be good for a beginner till i actually did research and found, that it would not be good for me since they are skittish and tend to freak out.

help? :[

-think of me as a child. Child can take care of a T perfectly but needs to hold them and "play" with them.- lol