Goodbye my little girl

I really wish you didn't have to leave so suddenly. I wish I knew what happened, I wish I could have figured things out sooner. I wish I could make sense of what happened to you. I'm glad I managed to say good bye to you last night, but I wish I knew it was good bye. I'm so sorry. I miss you. I love you.




To everyone reading, I'm sorry I don't have the strength to share what happened right now in detail. My heart is too heavy. But thank you for all the support and help you have given me. I'm currently waiting for necropsy results.

Oh no...I'm so sorry for your loss...I sure do know how it feels. :tears: When, if ever, you want to talk about it, we're here for you. Hugs!

Sorry for the sad news :(

So sorry for the loss of Kallari. :(

So sorry for you loss. I hope the necropsy can give you some closure.

I'm so sorry to hear of this. You're in my thoughts.

I'm always happy to lend an ear if you need a fellow snake lover to vent to or chat with, feel free to PM me any time. Keep your chin up (I know, easier said than done).

Know we are here for you and are thinking of you both.

Hoping you get closure.

Sorry for your loss. its never easy to lose those you love be them cold or warm blooded.

Thank you for the kind words everyone. This was really unexpected and it's been a heavy blow to me. I'm still waiting on lab results from her necropsy, and it's being incredibly nerve wracking. They said it could take up to a week (her organs were sent to the lab for further investigation) and it's been exactly 7 days since, so I hope that means they will call me soon.

I really miss her.

Already posted on a different thread but going to post here too to keep everyone updated plus more info

First necropsy results were they noted her heart seemed large compared to the rest of her body, but this could have been the result of post mortem.

They also found an obstruction in her lower GI and what they suspect was the cause of her death. Seems she ingested some reptibark.

I got Kallari's lab results back and it was reported her pancreas, liver, a section of intestine, and spleen were all normal.

I admit I was disappointed her heart was not sent despite it being noted to be "large for her body".

My biggest upset was this;

"Submitting the brain may have given us more information regarding Kallari's neurologic status, but we could not do that and preserve her skeleton as you requested."

I wish they told me this. I did request to take care of her skeleton IF POSSIBLE, because I wanted her body back to have her skeleton preserved. They could have atleast informed me that meant restrictions and skipping out on the brain being submitted all together.

If I was told this from the beginning, I would have told them it was fine to do so because knowing the truth and what happened to Kallari was a higher priority.

They just assumed and didn't even ask, just told me after the fact. Even when I got her body back I wasnt told this.

Very disappointed and upset. Never going to that exotic vet ever again.

I feel like some of the information I asked the receptionist to send to the doctor were ignored. I told them Kallari had suddenly been experiencing what I thought looked like seizures the night before she died, and considering that detail wasn't even addressed when I got her results back, makes me wonder what what was communicated between the receptionist to the doctor.

I'm just mad because if I had spoken to the doctor directly instead of filtering through the receptionist it would have gone better. Because the doctor called me after she finished the necropsy. Asked if I wanted her ogans submitted for an extra charge and I said yes. I wanted to talk more in detail but she called when I was at a doctor's appointment. I asked if I could call back in 5 minutes.

When I did she was never available, and I was stuck talking to the receptionist, who I don't think passed the seizure detail to my doctor, because I feel if she had, the doctor would have told me about the skull needing to be cut open to get Kallari's brain and I would have been given the opportunity to say it was fine.

I'm incredibly frustrated and angry.

So there we have it. I will never get full closure. Kallari either died from ingesting reptibark or had neurological issues that didn't surface until it was too late.

This is not the closure I was hoping for.

I'm so sorry you didn't get conclusive results. I'm sure it doesn't make the whole thing any easier on you.

This is definitely the hardest part of keeping pets, but the time we do get with them is special and never to be forgotten.
Please try to keep your chin up. You're a good snake parent and Kallari was lucky she was able to share her time with you, albeit too short.

R.I.P. sweet snake

I totally understand that this isn't the closure you wanted. I would be frustrated too.

Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you and Kallari.

Thank you for the kind words, it's been really hard.

I loved her so much and was really hoping so watch her grow and live a long life with me. I'm grateful for the time I did have her and treasure those moments.

I'm also glad we did have one last good bye. The night before she passed I had taken her out to check on her and give her a once over. There was a moment where she looked at me calmly and I felt she was really giving me a good look. We spent a good while just looking at eachother.

I didn't realize it was goodbye at the time but I'm very grateful for that moment. I will never forget it.

I'll be having her skeleton preserved to keep her memory beautiful and remind me she's at peace.

Here is the last photos I've taken of her as a memorial.
https://pbs.twimg.com/media/EQqSp10X...jpg&name=large

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/EQqSpWrW...name=4096x4096

So sorry that you didn't get all the information you so wanted & deserved. Kallari was special & gone way too soon...this could have happened to any of us, & to any of our pets, please know that.

:snake: Rest in peace, sweet Kallari...you were cherished. :tears: