I feel your pain,I'm currently driving back from my fathers burial near the town where he was raised Van Buren. Its a rough time and you may make it worse feeling guily you did'nt say good bye.I'm sure your father knew you loved him so don't worry about that.The best advise I can give you is remember the good times and surround yourself with your good friends and family,that includes your bp.net fam this really is a caring group of people.If you ever need someone to talk to or vent PM me. Sorry for your loss just remember time does heal all wounds.