In memory of my bestfriend: Reaper

[Hawthorne's Owner]

This is something I wrote for my bestfriend: a male tabby who I watched be born, who I nursed with kitten formula after his mother died when giving birth to his litter mates and him. The kitten I had the honor to watch grow and mature and learn, The cat who he became and everyone loved. Rest in peace Reaper, you are gone but never will you be forgotten. My cheeks still dampen when I talk about you and I still dream of waking up to you beside me once more.

*The poem below is one I have written and hold the original copy/all rights to. I have published it numerous times in different books of poetry. I wrote this for my beloved Reaper*

I cry to this day
From the day you died
Cry my heart out still asking why
Once in awhile I'll hear you purr
My eyes begin to flood
My world without you becomes a blur
I loved you so much I guess like I should
I hear your soft little meows
And I see you but I don't know how
My arms are empty because you're not here
These are the reasons I cry because I held you dear
I listened to your heartbeat
As it faded away
You died in my arms
And it hurts to think of that day
I kissed your head and told you I loved you
Before I laid you down
You were the best friend I ever found
You licked my cheek when I cried
You were the reason I remained alive
My heart stay still the day you left
The times I didn't spend with you I do now resent
But you were my baby and will always be
No one can mean as much to me
So lonely and sad I look at your grave
You are the one I still wish I could have saved
I wish it was me instead of you
You had so much undone, so much more to do
No words can describe the feelings of sorrow
I'll still cry forever and every tomorrow
Sometimes I think I feel you sleeping at my feet at night
And those tears I have to fight
I miss you more than you will ever know
I just wish I could hold you in my arms again
I swear to everything I would never let you go.


Born October 30th 2010
Died December 1st 2011

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Reaper had a urinary tract infection that was unknown and led no symptoms eventually his organs shut down while I held him in my arms. He had a heart attack and died in my arms with my head against his and his paw over my heart in the waiting room of the vet. Let this be a reminder to all pet owners to take your pet to the vet often even if nothing seems wrong. Though writing all this has made me start to cry I thought everyone should know about him because as long as people know then he isnt really gone. He never will be. May he find peace on the rainbow bridge<3

[PorcelainxDoll]

Im so sorry for your loss! Its amazing how much a cat can inpact our lives. I also,had a bottle fed rescue cat that passed young and it tore me to pieces.

I wish i could give you a big hug. That poem was beautidul!

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[Hawthorne's Owner]

Thank you for your post and yes it is amazing how animals can impact our lives so much. I have my Ball though who grew up with the cat I lost still so I find comfort in the time I spend with him. It is crazy though to say almost a year later after my cat has passed and I am still grieving. Sorry for talking your ear off. I hope all is well and that im not being a burden. Take care

[JackSprat]

aww that was really sweet. sorry you had to go thru that but im sure you wouldnt have given up the time u had with him if it took away the pain.hold onto the sweet memories and good luck moving forward.

[DooLittle]

Your poem and story made me cry. I not to long ago lost the best cat I have ever had from congestive heart failure. He was only 4. We tried everything we could to buy him more time on earth, the cardiologist gave him approximately a year, and he only made it about 2 months, it was very aggressive. We would drain the fluid off, and it came back very quickly, they tried upping his meds to help keep it off, but the high dose of meds almost did him in too, so we had to back off those. I understand your pain, it hurts a lot. What a sad story, poor little Reaper, I am so sorry for your loss. Time will heal.

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[foxoftherose]

This will sound strange, but at least you got to hold him as he passed. I lost a very special girl about three years ago, and being able to hold her as she died is probably the only thing that got me through that episode.
Trust me, still grieving a year later is nothing strange. If you need to talk about Reaper to someone, I'd love to hear about him.