I need to open up

[crepers86]

Hey guys I miss ya'll as much as I miss my kids (snakes) that I had to give up last month. I wanted to open because I need prayers and just because I don't have my BPs and my one boa in my care at this time don't mean I am going to leave you guys.

On May 20 the pressure of everything got to me. I attempted to suicide. after smashing my lap top on a tile floor and telling my mom (whom I felt was pushing me way when I needed some support the most) that I give up everything since I can't seem to do anything right. I ran out of her house and to some thick woods. I had been seeking psychiatric care but I was at the end of my ropes. I blew up. I tried slicing my rest open. but I was sort of followed by a stranger. who found me before it was too late. I spent about 14 days in the hospital. I wanted to live I wanted to get out of feeling this way. and the hospital stabalized me enough to put me in a residential treatment where I am able to come and go during the day. Because the blow up at mom's house has now put me in a homeless situation even further, I have found a lot of services in the Houston area that can help me. I have a goal but I need to do it right and I can't rush into things I need to take things a day at a time. I have a couple addictions one of them is to my reptiles. but I need to be completely stable before I can look at getting any of them back. I am also in the mean time doing a 30 day video blog I am going to be posting on youtube soon about my after hospital recovery if yall are interested in seeing it let me know and I will put them here

[Royal Hijinx]

Well, that is sad to hear, but looks like you are moving in the right direction.

[Coleslaw007]

My deepest congratulations on getting on the right path!

As someone who had struggled with major and manic depression for most of my life I get where you're coming from, its really hard. I only within the last 3 years am really getting to where someone my age (24) should be emotionally and otherwise after over a 5 year black hole depression. I tried to commit myself, kill myself, and had the suicide prevention people out to my house more times than I'd like to recount.

I can promise you that with the right choices and you really wanting to get healthy again mentally that life can and will get better. I can really vividly remember truly not wanting to live anymore, not wanting to suffer anymore. But looking at where I am now and how far I've come, even as much as I suffered then, I am SO glad I didn't end it because I wouldn't be where I am now.

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